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Love | Life – And, the Rose that knows

Love turns
Love burns
Love yearns

But, so to, does life …..

In silence, I find my inner voiceIn darkness,I find my eternal lightIn light,I find myeternal darknessIn In me,I find my truth (1)

She walked into the room
with a but rose
and a dainty stare
and the only question
was if she was representing life
or was it death
as she held out her left hand

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Life needs
Life feeds
Life bleeds
But, so to, does love…..

What is real without really knowing what is really real_ (1)

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Two Events – Two Roles

Every day we create the universe before our eyes that is as we choose it to be.

Today, for me, I was introduced to two gentleman with very similar circumstances but they both were playing very different roles.

What if everyone is playing a role?  Not merely playing the role of parent, caregiver, lover, friend, employee, or employer, or whatever societal role yours may be, but what about everyone playing other roles as well?

The first gentleman, we will call him Jacob, was in his early 20s and for anyone who think that generation has somehow lost a step I am absolutely loving this new energy I keep manifesting for myself.   This young man is very indicative of others  his age I have met recently.
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Jacob had such amazing energy. He was so vibrant, excited and completely in joy when I picked him up for a ride.   As soon as he got in the car, I could feel his energy.

I asked Jacob where he was going, and he responded by saying he had only a few minutes earlier woke up to his friend asking him if he could change the tire on his van that had been left on I-95.  There was no resistance but instead, Jacob was excited about the opportunity to help him, because in part, he had known since he was 4 years old.

Jacob had such high vibration, and not only could I feel his energy, b20171223_123601_001ut I could see he was playing the role of hero.  Jacob was his friend’s hero, and he stepped fully into this role.

After dropping him off, and a little while later, I was manifested the second gentleman.   I had parked my car, and was getting ready to walk towards the grocery story when he called out asking if I could jump his car.   I had a feeling I was not the first person he asked.

He was not only much older than Jacob, but he was quite a bit older than myself.  We will call him Ethan, and he had on a gold necklace, a bright yellow button down dress shirt that he wore out over his dress pants.

I could feel Ethan’s energy was kind, much like Jacob’s, although Ethan was nervous.

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The hood of the car was already up, the jumper cables already attached, and the first thing Ethan told me was that he had to push his car even though he recently had surgery.  He then pulled up his pant leg to reveal the long scar.

Ironically, when I was pulling in I thought I saw him pushing the car and had planned on parking and then getting out to help him push, but he had already finished.

I could feel Ethan needed to share about having surgery, because his role he was playing was of the victim.

It is said that a hero needs a villain, but that is reserved for comic books and super heroes, because in reality the villain needs the hero, and the hero needs the villain.  They both play off one another.

Another irony is both ended their time with me in much the same way.   Both gave me a man hug, said they were incredibly grateful, and were gone as quickly as they arrived.

The victim was not bad, nor the hero good.  Both were merely playing a role.superhero-296963_960_720

At other times, if we would have met at a different place or time, the roles may be reversed.

We have all played the role of victim.  We have all played the role of hero.   And, we consistently play many different roles.  Those roles play off each other, as people come in and out of our lives, even like Ethan and Jacob, their time with me is but for only a few moments.

Seeing people as playing a role helps me to see them as more human and allows me to see them as even more human, as I recognize in myself the many times I have played the role of a victim.  I have seen the many times I have played the role of a hero, too.

In fact, these two gentleman that I manifested today are a gentle reminder of not only when I have been the victim and the hero, but what other roles I am playing each and every day.

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I AM (FREE)

I am
no longer allowing
doubt
uncertainty, or the unknown
to cloud my judgment

I am
living a life of
Certainty
and Conviction

CONVICTION

I am
no longer having
fear
lack or guilt
dictate my decision(s)

I am
living a life of
Purpose
and Passion

PASSION

I am
no longer being in
pain
hurt or suffering

I am
living a life of
Abundance
And​,​ Gratitude

GRATITUDE

I am
no longer feeling
disconnected
alone or helpless

I am
living a life of
Joy
And​,​  Peace

AJOY

​I am
Love
And, Light​

LOVE

I am
FREE

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I AM APPRECIATIVE

I am appreciative

Of My Life

This morning, I woke up and opened my eyes yet again for another day.   I got out of bed, let my feet hit the floor, and without any assistance stood on my own two feet.  Without any conscious thought, I breathed in and out.   Into the bathroom I walked and there in the mirror I was introduced to my face, my body, my thoughts, my feelings, my circumstances, and my situations, and instead of looking away, I was able to smile embracing that this is the life of my dreams now.

Of My Love

Today, and each every day, is opportunity of infinite proportions to choose each and every thought, every word, every action, and I am fully responsible for my behavior.    Love is the light within that I choose to radiate allowing myself to become one with myself and the world around me.   Love not only of others, but of self,  of life, and love of living today embraced fully in the moment that is now.

Of My State

There may be circumstances and situations, there has been, and there will be, that will cause me to pause and to peer into the pond and to see myself in my own reflection.   My focus can either be on the problem(s) or the solution(s), but it is up to me to be fully accountable for my current state of being.    It is mine to choose to love myself as whole, to embrace the love that I am as enough, and while each and every day I get better and better, my life it is amazing and beautiful right now.

There is always something to be thankful for. (1)

 

Naked, Lets Get, Me and You

Into the darkness, she reveals herself
With but a murmur scarcely audible
Her voice cowering as she tries
In vain to conceal herself
From her being naked


There are things
I don’t like about you
There are things
I don’t like about me

Waiting, impatiently she turns away
Unable to look at what is directly
In front of her the harsh reality
That is the truth unveiling


I look at me
And, there is not
Everything I want to see
There is not
Everything I want to be

Stumbling, words they become
A jumbled mess attempting
To escape all at once
Chaotic jailbreak


But, I keep looking
Stripping off masks
Of insecurity
To look deeper
Getting naked
With myself
And, being ok
With every
Scar of hurt
Scratch of
Desperation
Wrinkle of
Worry

Daringly, they do, marching
Out of her mouth rolling off
Her tongue in complete
Synchronicity


I look at you
And, there is not
Everything I want to see
There is not
Everywhere I want to be

Stumbling, trying to take
Hold her words are
Powerful and yet
Intriguing


But, I keep looking
Stripping off masks
Of insecurity
To look deeper
Getting naked
With you
And, being ok
With every
Scar of hurt
Scratch of
Desperation
Wrinkle of
Worry

Courageously, she finds great
Insight in the plight that is
Hungry for more as she
Keeps her focus


There are things
I like about you
There are things
I like about me

Timidly, the shroud of secrecy
Is lifted as she reveals it all
Letting her words drop
To the floor exposing
Herself completely


It is a matter
Of what I choose
To see
In you
Of what I choose
To see
In me

Calmly, she licks her lips
Cocks her hips and
Proceeds to dance
Seductive provocative
She is in a trance


If we can
Find that the
Distance
Is not too great
That we cannot
Bridge that gap
Meld into one
Bring together
All that we are

Longingly, the trance
Becomes a stance
For which she
Owns


For all our myriad
Of holes
Being able to fully
Acknowledge
Our truth
Holding true
To being you
Holding true
To being me
Knowing we are
Me and you
Whole
Knowing we are
Me and you
One

Into the light, she reveals herself
Without the need to be audible
Her voice powerfully silent
No constraint to conceal
Herself from being
Completely
Naked

Today, May It Be, The Day

May Today
Be the Day

You see something
Extraordinarily beautiful
You’ve never seen before

You hear something
Breathtakingly wonderful
You’ve never heard before

You feel something
Spine-tingling sensuous
You’ve never felt before

You experience something
Magically stupendous
You’ve never experienced before

May Today
Be the Day 

 

To His Coy  Mistress
Andrew Marvell

Had we but world enough and time,
This coyness, lady, were no crime.
We would sit down, and think which way
To walk, and pass our long love’s day.
Thou by the Indian Ganges’ side
Shouldst rubies find; I by the tide
Of Humber would complain. I would
Love you ten years before the flood,
And you should, if you please, refuse
Till the conversion of the Jews.
My vegetable love should grow
Vaster than empires and more slow;
An hundred years should go to praise
Thine eyes, and on thy forehead gaze;
Two hundred to adore each breast,
But thirty thousand to the rest;
An age at least to every part,
And the last age should show your heart.
For, lady, you deserve this state,
Nor would I love at lower rate.
       But at my back I always hear
Time’s wingèd chariot hurrying near;
And yonder all before us lie
Deserts of vast eternity.
Thy beauty shall no more be found;
Nor, in thy marble vault, shall sound
My echoing song; then worms shall try
That long-preserved virginity,
And your quaint honour turn to dust,
And into ashes all my lust;
The grave’s a fine and private place,
But none, I think, do there embrace.
       Now therefore, while the youthful hue
Sits on thy skin like morning dew,
And while thy willing soul transpires
At every pore with instant fires,
Now let us sport us while we may,
And now, like amorous birds of prey,
Rather at once our time devour
Than languish in his slow-chapped power.
Let us roll all our strength and all
Our sweetness up into one ball,
And tear our pleasures with rough strife
Through the iron gates of life:
Thus, though we cannot make our sun
Stand still, yet we will make him run.

The Thought Before The Thought

When you wake up in the morning
what is that voice inside your head say?
Before you consciously start to think.

Is it?

Let’s Go!

Or is it?

Oh No!!!  

Not Again!?!?

Be kind to that thought before the thought.

Be aware that is the thinking, and be kind.
Rewind and say, it’s going to be ok.
I am strong, and I am brave.
I am now, and I am ready
to go.

When you look in the mirror at night

what is that voice inside your head say?

Before you consciously start to think.

Is it?

Wow, 

look at me! 
I am so amazing!

Or, is it?

How 

can someone look at me??? 
I am nothing.

Be loving to that thought before the thought.

Be aware that is the thinking, and be loving.
Rewind and say, it’s going to be ok.
I am strong, and I am brave.
I am now, and I am
everything.

When you look in the during the day

what is that voice inside your head saying?

Before you consciously start to think.

Is it?

Why me?  

What did I ever do to deserve this 
god awful day, and life?

Or, is it?

Why not me?  

Thank you god 
for this most wonderful day,
and amazing life.

Be compassionate to that thought before the thought.

Be aware that is the thinking, and be compassionate.
Rewind and say, it’s going to be ok.
I am strong, and I am brave.
I am now, and I am responsible
for me.