Not Always…

_What someone says is not always what they mean. What someone hears is not always what is said. What someone does is not always what they intend._ _ Bryan Hayes

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My Past I Am Not

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I am nothing.
I am no one.
I am nobody.
I am not space.
I am not time.
I am not this thought.
I am not this body.

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I am the Unknown
I am Creativity
I am Truth
I am Life
I am Love
I am Happiness
I am Joy
I am Peace
I am Abundance

In silence, I find my inner voiceIn darkness,I find my eternal lightIn light,I find myeternal darknessIn In me,I find my truth (1)
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The solution will be foundThe problem will be solvedThe sickness will be healedThe sorrow will be relievedwhen it is.Not a second sooneror a secondlater.

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Today Is The Day!

I woke up this morning

Opened my eyes

And instinctively

I began to pray

Not to God per se

Or for anyone or anything

But rather simply a moment

Reflective of the miracle that is

Another day here today

And while I should have been

Most grateful for it

And all that it is

And, IT IS

All of life

Miraculously divine

From Everyone

To everything

From the finite clock time

To the illusion of psychological

Time and space

I did not

Feel it in that place

Where in my bed I lay

Awake but still asleep

Alive and yet dead inside

For as much as I know to be

I instead went ahead

And felt a twinge of something

Far less appreciative than

Gratitude and while my latitude

Of where I am was high

I could feel my vibration

Was nowhere near my intention

Of where I set myself out to be

As a silent wave of sadness

Rippled through my veins

Along with a flow of feeling

Isolated in the world

My world that I create

The one that is my own

That I alone atone

For my convictions

Of where I was and am

Where I will be as me

 Allowing the emotions

To move through my

Weary head while still

And silent lying in bed

Before trying to decide

Whether to again

Roll over and partake

In slumber

Or to make the decision

To let the feelings

Subside and rest assured

They are but passing through

Only on vacation

Not taking up permanent

Residence as they are

As much a part of my being

As even my seeing

That I so naturally take

For granted

As that gift of sight

Like so many others

Are mere oversight

As I make my way

Through another day

Unconscious of it all

That is going on inside

As it too is an entire

Ecosystem all to its own

My body my mind my soul

Not parts but rather all

That makes me whole

And complete

The vessel that sails

Through the night

And into the light

Of morning

As this morning

Was like any other

It was merely my

Perception that altered

Where I thought

I was at

In those moments

That were a production

Of all I cultivated

Knowing full well

That there are billions

Of people who like me

Are all connected

Interdependent Intertwined

A collection of thoughts

Feeling emotions and actions

Pulling together a web

Of consciousness

Stretching across the universe

And beyond

As no one is beyond

Feeling alone

Or feeling sad

Or feeling

Life’s blood flowing

Through the veins of each

Vessel knowing

That me is a byproduct

Of we and we

Is a byproduct of me

Together so sublime

Together we are here

In this most limited

Of time that continues

Ever more to tick

And it is up to us

Up to we

Better yet

Up to me

Whether it is

A jail sentence

Or a life sentence

A life that begins with

A capital not punishment

But reward

And ends not with death

But of living

A life completely free

From the captivity

Of the mind that is the cell

Most often occupied

Choosing instead to surrender

To and let go of

All that does not provide

An exclamation point

For at the end

Whether it be

The end of the day

The end of a thought

The end of a conversation

The end of a relationship

Or, the end of it all

Because there is far too

Much living to be done

Before it’s all said

And done

To stay lying in bed

As what matters most

Is getting up

Time and time again

Moving forward

Even in the face

Of uncertainty

Of doubt

And, of fear

For they too are

Aspects of giving

To this world all that is

To be living

Because we fall not

And get hurt

But rather we get hurt

But the way we fall

It is when we relax

It is when we breathe

It is when we allow

Ourselves to fall

That we are able to

Maybe hit the mat

Sometimes even hard

But as hard as it is

To again rise to our feet

The more times we do

And the less times we

Stay on the ground

Stay stuck in our head

Stay lying in bed

Stay afraid

Of this and of that

The more we find ourselves

Open and capable

Of being able to

Have everything be

As it should be

Here and now

With everything falling

Neatly in place

Whether it is

Falling in love

With all that I am

All that is possible

All that there is

To be grateful for

To appreciate of

To honor

And to respect

The life

That is

And the lives

That are

To show up

To find a focal point

That is at the center

Of what is wanted

What is desired

What is needed

To fill the coffers

With all the riches

Not of merely coins

But rather the wealth

Of radiant health

Of complete peace

And security

Of blissful joy

And happiness

Of unbridled success

And prosperity

Of Unlimited Choices

And opportunities

As today

Is the day

It can all happen

Is happening

The moment

I opened my eyes

And began to pray

Simply by being

Afforded today

As the ultimate gift

To have and to hold

To cherish all that

There is to behold

Allowing love to unfold

Kindness reign

Joy to sing

And in certainty

That today

Is the day

I pray

Amen

Two Events – Two Roles

Every day we create the universe before our eyes that is as we choose it to be.

Today, for me, I was introduced to two gentleman with very similar circumstances but they both were playing very different roles.

What if everyone is playing a role?  Not merely playing the role of parent, caregiver, lover, friend, employee, or employer, or whatever societal role yours may be, but what about everyone playing other roles as well?

The first gentleman, we will call him Jacob, was in his early 20s and for anyone who think that generation has somehow lost a step I am absolutely loving this new energy I keep manifesting for myself.   This young man is very indicative of others  his age I have met recently.
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Jacob had such amazing energy. He was so vibrant, excited and completely in joy when I picked him up for a ride.   As soon as he got in the car, I could feel his energy.

I asked Jacob where he was going, and he responded by saying he had only a few minutes earlier woke up to his friend asking him if he could change the tire on his van that had been left on I-95.  There was no resistance but instead, Jacob was excited about the opportunity to help him, because in part, he had known since he was 4 years old.

Jacob had such high vibration, and not only could I feel his energy, b20171223_123601_001ut I could see he was playing the role of hero.  Jacob was his friend’s hero, and he stepped fully into this role.

After dropping him off, and a little while later, I was manifested the second gentleman.   I had parked my car, and was getting ready to walk towards the grocery story when he called out asking if I could jump his car.   I had a feeling I was not the first person he asked.

He was not only much older than Jacob, but he was quite a bit older than myself.  We will call him Ethan, and he had on a gold necklace, a bright yellow button down dress shirt that he wore out over his dress pants.

I could feel Ethan’s energy was kind, much like Jacob’s, although Ethan was nervous.

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The hood of the car was already up, the jumper cables already attached, and the first thing Ethan told me was that he had to push his car even though he recently had surgery.  He then pulled up his pant leg to reveal the long scar.

Ironically, when I was pulling in I thought I saw him pushing the car and had planned on parking and then getting out to help him push, but he had already finished.

I could feel Ethan needed to share about having surgery, because his role he was playing was of the victim.

It is said that a hero needs a villain, but that is reserved for comic books and super heroes, because in reality the villain needs the hero, and the hero needs the villain.  They both play off one another.

Another irony is both ended their time with me in much the same way.   Both gave me a man hug, said they were incredibly grateful, and were gone as quickly as they arrived.

The victim was not bad, nor the hero good.  Both were merely playing a role.superhero-296963_960_720

At other times, if we would have met at a different place or time, the roles may be reversed.

We have all played the role of victim.  We have all played the role of hero.   And, we consistently play many different roles.  Those roles play off each other, as people come in and out of our lives, even like Ethan and Jacob, their time with me is but for only a few moments.

Seeing people as playing a role helps me to see them as more human and allows me to see them as even more human, as I recognize in myself the many times I have played the role of a victim.  I have seen the many times I have played the role of a hero, too.

In fact, these two gentleman that I manifested today are a gentle reminder of not only when I have been the victim and the hero, but what other roles I am playing each and every day.

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I AM (FREE)

I am
no longer allowing
doubt
uncertainty, or the unknown
to cloud my judgment

I am
living a life of
Certainty
and Conviction

CONVICTION

I am
no longer having
fear
lack or guilt
dictate my decision(s)

I am
living a life of
Purpose
and Passion

PASSION

I am
no longer being in
pain
hurt or suffering

I am
living a life of
Abundance
And​,​ Gratitude

GRATITUDE

I am
no longer feeling
disconnected
alone or helpless

I am
living a life of
Joy
And​,​  Peace

AJOY

​I am
Love
And, Light​

LOVE

I am
FREE

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I AM

I am
In acceptance
That I am not alone
That you are here
With me

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I am
In acknowledgement
That I am connected
To eternal source energy
Within me

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I am
In reverence
That I am supported
By your holy light
With me

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I am
In gratitude
That I am blessed
By the divine insight
Within me

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I am
In appreciation
For it all
And all that is
With me

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I am
In love
With the gift
Of love
Within me

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with Bryan Haze

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